Shortly back at my work desk after having a brief conversation with a colleague about how she lived her life until date without being led into any transgessions, not atleast in the sane knowledge of her 5 senses. Being a Christian, I am aware of the rules myself, but it is difficult to claim of being downright clean of wrongdoings.
So her little modus operandi of avoiding the sinful course are not watching movies (at all), music to her is defined under the small bracket of hymns alone, there is no concept of hanging out with friends explicitly in her vocabulary. Ofcourse she claims to have avoided lieing. All this to be on the nicer list of the Almighty.
Being well informed about Biblical teachings, I put forward my best effort to be on the same nice list. Bible abhors lies, even in case of trying situations I avoid lieing I rather just say nothing at all, until asked about it. Bible also advises us against watching anything immoral or sinful, unlike the idea of not watching movies at all, I simply fast-forward through the parts that my mind judges as vile and strongly condemn movies that solely have immoral content(I hope you know what I mean). Intoxication is another sin, about which the Bible shares a strong opinion of maintaining one’s senses at all times. And in case you fall short on doing right by the rules scripted, we have our Sundays dedicated for confessions. So everything seems to be under control uptil now.
I know the rules but I live by taking assistance of the loopholes in them… and still lay in hope of being in the acceptable-into-heaven radar.
.. signing off forever.. (:
Blind young boys, crippled kids, mothers holding almost dead little kids with thick red color popping out of the huge bandage tied on their forehead, young girls with untidy brown hair touching you constantly until we yield to their stubborn begging have now become mainstream techniques of asking for money.
A young girl, age barely reaching 10, short and untidy in existence wearing a wide dupatta across her chest covering the frock underneath as if she were wearing a saree .. walked past a few unsuccessful attempts (including me). Somehow people begging for money find couples to be easy preys.. a young unmarried Gujarati couple busy on their phones were interrupted by this little girl.. the duo bluntly refused help at first.. she did not look ready for another rejection.. and moved a little behind from her current position to a place that drew the two’s attention .. she put one of her tiny fingers inside her little nostrils for about half a second, not trying to achieve anything but annoyance from the Gujju pair.. after her little unclean stint she reached out to touch the couple in an attempt to ask for money again .. the pair could not tolerate the thought of those dirty little fingers moving close to them, jumped behind.. and extended a few coins in exchange to their freedom.
Can anyone disagree to this level of shrewdness ! (: *thug life music in background*
Being a socially active human.. I show off my new hair color to my pretty dress.. allow me to flaunt an act of kindness this time.
I have a habit of particularly eating unhealthy items that do nothing nutritious than add soothingly amazing flavour to my tongue. Yup.. That is how I’ve managed to add a few many kilos to my tummy fat. Times when I’m stressed and I’ve been regularly having the forbidden diet.. I tend to fall prey to harsh acidity attacks. Starting with nausea to excruciating tummy pain. This time I had my 9 months heavily pregnant sibling by my side.. she kept serving me freshly warmed ginger juice as a quick fix recipie and fruits as per Google’s suggestions to keep me alive through the day.. 😊
.. and look what I had done to her tender legs ! The additional to and fro walks had aggravated her leg condition..
Truly.. Happiness resides in such deeds of humanness.
Whining about work overload? – ever travelled in a Mumbai local? Had an opportunity to get a good sight of the homeless? Not the ones who beg for money during the day and spend their nights in drunken revelry, the real ones – the ones who sell those small not so important items from compartment to compartment – reviewing the list of amenities each sale would grant them- when I say amenities I certainly don’t mean the pleasure arrangements we have in our mind..but those that we disregard as a necessity.
Are you still complaining? I’m not.😉😊
All through 2015 I’ve been complaining.. that 2014 had been better. Yea.. I know I’ve been rude to you 2015. (I hate being compared myself 😛 )
So time to be grateful to you 2015:
1. + 2
I began the year with a huge void with my sister moving out after marriage. We do think nothing is going to change but it’s just like those promises we made to our school/college pals on farewell day.. Being in touch after all isn’t all that easy.. that spark fades a little each passing day. And here’s the part that I hate to admit.. I did get a bit lonely sans her.
The universe has always comforted me during my down times in unanticipated ways, I got two amazing new friends (I’d like to add a few more adjectives, but i know they’d be reading this.. and I don’t want you guys to be on “channe ka jaad”(gloating) 😛 ), matched my frequency with them and voila! – Its just that you have an inch more confidence in some bonds and you like to proudly flaunt it.
2. Self Help books
There is nothing wrong in finding solace in a self help book. We all have those lazy mornings, getting your lazy bum off that cozy soft bed is one pretty hard task and if you’ve somehow managed to break through the morning-bed spell, convincing yourself to get ready for work is the next level of difficulty that is thrown right at your face.
Somehow self help books manage to charge me up. Thank you 2015 for this little discovery.
3. added 10 kilos to my 2014 size.
While almost everyone around me whines for the same reason, I do not. I love food and like my mother phrases it – “You can have anything that would not turn around to bite you” 😛
This is the one area I might have spend most of my fortune on and I have no regrets. 😀 (Just the part that my old clothes no longer adjusts into my new body aches me :P)
4. Un-Cold myself
I’ve been cold- in the sense that its hard to break me into tears. Through my 4 years of engineering the only time I reached a point near to tears was when I lost all my files a week before submission. Well that is not the case anymore.
Not a tad proud of this part and I hope my 2016 confession list will have a bullet about me shedding away this trait.
5. And lastly a pat for self improvement –
Last year marked a remarkable improvement work wise. Having missed the phenomenal part of my training I did lose hope that I’d ever be fine at what I do. But with some backing of the 2 I mentioned about in the start, I managed to shake that “amateurish” dust off me.
2016. I’m prepared for you. Bring it on.
Now as you walk away I wish you would turn back, if not for a smile at least for a rude glance or a petty fight.